Just came back from Youmacon and felt I should blog a little bit about my experience. I decided to start vlogging for lazy people like me. Because of the video limitations though I could only talk about a small amount of the things I did.
Haven’t been on or posted the last few days, except for today. Sorry about that, but my computer has been busted for awhile and I’ve been slowly fixing it. My computer still has a few problems. Although I fixed enough of it to go on the internet again, only if I use a cable, my wifi driver is still broken. Therefore I feel it is the perfect time to get back to blogging again, especially since I can’t sleep.
Now for me not being able to sleep is a normal thing for me. Mostly because something is wrong with my mind that just keeps me awake when I’m tired for almost no good reason. Another is that every time I fall asleep I have nightmares that wake me back up, kind of like Sam when he went insane in Supernatural. I usually get like 4 to 6 hours of sleep and that’s pretty average for me. Some people blame all the caffeine I drink, unfortunately it isn’t. This still happens even when I haven’t had caffeine in months over the summer. The only effects that caffeine has on me is that it calms down my heart rate, as opposed to speeding it up which is odd. It also calms me down and gets rid of my anxieties. Finally one of the big reasons that I drink it is that it makes me feel happy. Other than that I drink monsters cause I like the taste.
I guess the only times now a days that I can sleep decently is when it’s with my girlfriend. When she cuddles next to me in the bed I feel calm, safe, happy, and loved and I have no trouble falling asleep. I also tend to experience less nightmares, but when I do her presence helps to calm me back down so that I can continue to sleep. I actually can manage to sleep 8 hours or even more when I’m with her. It’s amazing how she’s able to help me by doing so little or absolutely nothing at all.
There is one thing that happened before that kind of pissed me off though, and it happened when her mom found out. Her mom found out awhile ago that we slept together in the same bed; luckily she only learned of one instance that we did it at her place. Her mom was freaking out over the possibility of us being in the same bed meaning that we where having sex. In that instance we weren’t, but we occasionally do. It was just an innocent moment of cuddling while we fell asleep in each others’ arms because we both tend to cuddle the closest thing to us while we sleep. What pisses me off the most about this though is that we are actually full grown adults right now. We live on our own and for some reason her mom feels that her daughter doesn’t have any sort of sexual, or bodily, freedom of her own. Although her mom seems calmer about it now, but my girlfriend says that it might be because she’s in denial. Maybe her mom’s just sad to see her daughters growing up because it makes her feel older. Every day I can feel my internal clock slowly ticking away and it feels terrible so I can get why feeling older would cause a person to freak out. I’m not gonna blame anyone or anything, plus it’s hard for me to stay mad, but she needs to let her daughter be her own person.
Because she is one of the best people I know and deserves happiness in whatever ways she may find it, but she needs to be free in order to do that.
Also as an ending note I’m still surprised everyday that she’s even interested in a person like me, and I’ll do my best to make sure she’s happy.
P.S. Sorry for the super long post.
Now the final video that I feel compelled to share with you guys
Second video that I just have to share.
I’m back and with a view videos that I saw about a week ago that I just have to share with you guys.
Here is a larger image of the surreal programming image.
As I IT major part of my education requires programming. Programming is fun, but it can get boring, annoying, and frustrating. This is especially true when you are debugging your program. So I like to add some comments to help make it a little more interesting.
For my programming class so far we have only covered basic stuff. I finished my first project awhile ago. It was just a simple Fahrenheit to Celsius calculator. In C# you can use ’ to input little side notes to yourself to remind yourself what those lines of code do. I put some interesting stuff in my side notes when I was bored.
Needless to say it turned a few heads in my class.
Today was an odd day. After sleeping in for some reason my head was fuzzy and I couldn’t think straight. At one point I blacked out and next thing I new I was driving and just passed up the casino on the way out of town. I immediately turned back around both freaked out and confused about how I got there.
On the way back I decided to stop by the local sex shop. I’ve been to sex shops before, but have yet to go to the local one since I’ve moved here. Lots of stuff was mostly pink and fluffy. Personally my favorite color is black; I wore lots of black when I was going through a large amount of depression several years back and it kind of just stuck with me. I took a look around and figured out I would take my girlfriend there later so we could decide on some fun new toys.
A little ways passed that was a Blockbuster. I personally enjoy Netflix because it’s cheap and I’m able to enjoy a lot of media for a low amount of money. I decided to stop by for nostalgia’s sake of when I used to rent VHS’s as a kid. I soon saw that they had a sign up that said, “Closing sale, everything must go.” I walked in and even saw them selling people the light bulbs for the place. It was kind of sad to see the place close down and the people there losing their jobs. Well I was there I did buy two Blu-Ray disks though, The Campaign, The Simpsons Movie, and Watchmen. I finally made it back to my place and played some Runescape since all my homework was done. Later my girlfriend came by and we watched The Campaign together. She’s gonna leave for awhile to go on a Geology field trip and will be gone for about a week or even more. I will dearly miss her company in that time, but I hope she will have fun on her trip.
Hej! Välkommen. :D
We’re definitely not sitting next to each other and talking to each other right now
So I’ll say hello on here
Two whole followers in the span of less than an hour I am overwhelmed how do I do the thing
Since only two people are going to see this, I’ll do personal greetings, why not XD
Yeah totally not next to each other right now.
Everything has been going great for me lately for once I don’t feel constantly terrible. I have some amazing friends who I can see whenever, and I can literally walk a few feet to visit them whenever I want. Also during January a girl I was overly interested in actually asked me out. I was so surprised and happy and that happiness still hasn’t died down <3
She is absolutely the best even though I still have emotional issues her love for me is unconditional and she does her best to help me through my worst times. She is the most beautiful and gorgeous woman I know; no supermodel could even hold a candle to her. I’m completely and absolutely in love with her. She has been busy lately with lots of work and college, but I’m so overjoyed when she finds a little bit of time in her day for me :)
Also my best friend, known as Fish, is amazing. They got me back into Runescape lately as well as Marble Hornets among other things. We also can geek out together about comics, superheros, doctor who, video games, and almost anything. It’s nice to have a friend I can truly be me around.
I feel like I should go into more detail, but for some reason I can’t find the words right now which is odd for me. Maybe it’s because I’m not used to being this happy. Well at least everything has been pretty awesome lately.